You know what’s the best feeling in the world? Just lying there on the bed like a knackered kid with nothing to give a damn about. Might as well enjoy it, I know I don’t have long enough till life flips out on me :/
I think I have sufficiently screwed up my future.
Enough said!
So… my Accountancy exam didn’t go well enough, and my Dad has co-incidentally been acting stern since. Good job done idiot (me)! I’m thinking to myself if I’ll even get what I am telling my parents. My carefully worded sentences (should get between 80 and 90 and should be around 80) don’t work anyway. Who pays enough attention these days? All the similar sentences mean the exact same thing to everyone.
I don’t even think I’ll have the courage to ask for a PC upgrade after my exams. I’m not sure why he wants me to get 90+ in all the subjects. I know he does. Perhaps, it’s because my brother didn’t do much, who still has to work for civil services, and he wants me to get into the same line as well, but with better scores. I’m not sure but I think I’d rather die than do what he wants. Seriously, dad?! I’m sorry but I’d like to live my life the way I want it, even if it sucks. You don’t need to freaking dictate me.
Talking about scores, what a tragedy it is that my score in Computer Science will not be considered in best 4 because it is not a mainstream/important enough subject. The only subject where I can assure myself of a 90+ will just not be considered. I’ll tell you what; Accountancy, Economics and Business Studies have nothing to do with English language (I’m looking at English Honors), then why the hell would you consider those in the best 4 either? Scumbags. The entire education system here is… I’ve given up on it.
No good enough scores, no PC upgrade, no career line. I’m officially a loser. The result day will either confirm my fears, or allay them. I’d have to wait two months for that, after the exams finish. What a life!